JOURNEY

THE CYCLE WE CALL LIFE
Feb. 27, 2009
12:55am

Here I am again
Waking up from a lonely dream
A dream that I know
Would never come true

Life is really like a long road
Full of blind curves and crossroads
We don’t know what lies ahead
We don’t know where it ends

I am traveling on a rough road
Meet a lot of holes and obstacles
Yes I may have passed some smooth streets
But from a checkpoint, I met a great challenge

A challenge to keep on going
Though someone is missing
Coz the one who hitched me
Unexpectedly fell somewhere

My life’s road seems long
I don’t know if I would still be among
The best drivers of our life’s cycle
Coz I am now alone
I have lost my partner, my daughter, my guide.

WATCH OUT! BEWARE! BE CAUTIOUS!

THE BENEFITS AND PITFALLS OF SKIPPING MEALS
(NEW YORK TIMES )

How effective is skipping meals when it comes to your health? We all skip meals sometimes for one reason or another, particularly when we are busy. Some people skip too many meals in order to lose weight. A study published in the medical journal Metabolism takes a first-hand look at how our eating habits affect our health and weight.

Diabetes researchers at the National Institute on Aging took healthy men and women with normal weight. For two months, these people ate three meals a day. Afterward, the subjects skipped two meals a day for eight weeks, but consumed just as many calories as their 3-meal-a-day routine, only in one large meal. The researchers found some dangerous metabolic changes. Glucose levels while fasting were raised and insulin response was delayed, which could one day ensure the onset of diabetes.

This study followed another study found conducted earlier this year that made their subjects skip meals every other day. Turns out, skipping meals every other day improved the overall health of overweight adults with asthma. The subjects in this study ate three meals a day one day, followed by a day of restricted eating. They ate only one meal a day about the size of a normal meal, about 500 calories. After two months, the subjects lost eight percent of their weight, asthma conditions improved, and cholesterol levels were improved.

From what the studies demonstrated, skipping meals by controlling the amount of calories you eat could improve your overall health, however, skipping meals then binge eating can be harmful to your body. Just make sure that when you decide to fast, be sure to eat healthy food for your one meal, rather than junk food. Try eating a large salad with low-fat dressing with a side of fruit and whole-wheat bread. To be sure you get all the vitamins and minerals you need, eat a multi-vitamin with your meal. Remember, on days you decide to skip meals, do not skip your exercises. It will speed up your metabolism and keep you in shape.

thoughts at dawn

NO REPLACEMENT
Feb. 24, 2009
4:30am

Lord, when will I stop regretting?
When will I ever stop blaming myself?
Does this mean I have not yet fully recovered?
Or Styx hasn’t peacefully rested?

I hope not. I hope she rested in peace
I don’t wanna be bothered like this
It seems I’m the one to be blamed
Why this tragic thing happened

Yes, I made a mistake, a very big mistake
But I‘m so sorry Lord
Please forgive me, I beg
If I could just turn back time…

If and only if…
I would never leave Styx
She should have been my priority
Before responding to the call of duty

Baby, please sleep in peace
Please be happy even you’re away from me
Coz you are now with God
Our creator, our beloved

Please forgive Mama, baby
I’ll forever suffer the consequence
Promise nobody will take your place

You’ll remain as my one and only Styx!

AT 2:00 AM

AT 2:00 AM

Styx, why did you leave Mama?
I thought we are partners
How will I continue living my life?
Without you by my side.
If I had just known you’ll go away
I should have spent all my time with you
Now, how will I recover?
I don’t know how to start all over.

I’m sorry baby I wasn’t the best mother to you
I’m very sorry I didn’t know how to take care of you
Now that you’re gone I am always regretting
Forever, it’s you whom I’ll be longing.
I know you don’t want me to worry
I’m sure you want me to be happy
But how will I enjoy baby?
Without you in my life, help me.

I really can’t stop thinking about you
Mama loves you so much baby I really do
You should have stayed alive for Mama
As my partner…..to inspire.
Baby, please help me to recover
And accept everything
Or else Mama will get sick
God! It should not happen
Because I still have Papa and Sky.

Be with us Styx always
Though you’re far away
Do watch over us and guard
You may not be my partner anymore
From heaven, you are our angel of light!

Written by: Mama Dess
Date: February 20, 2009 at 2am