thoughts at dawn

NO REPLACEMENT
Feb. 24, 2009
4:30am

Lord, when will I stop regretting?
When will I ever stop blaming myself?
Does this mean I have not yet fully recovered?
Or Styx hasn’t peacefully rested?

I hope not. I hope she rested in peace
I don’t wanna be bothered like this
It seems I’m the one to be blamed
Why this tragic thing happened

Yes, I made a mistake, a very big mistake
But I‘m so sorry Lord
Please forgive me, I beg
If I could just turn back time…

If and only if…
I would never leave Styx
She should have been my priority
Before responding to the call of duty

Baby, please sleep in peace
Please be happy even you’re away from me
Coz you are now with God
Our creator, our beloved

Please forgive Mama, baby
I’ll forever suffer the consequence
Promise nobody will take your place

You’ll remain as my one and only Styx!